Eat, Pray, Shoot

Landed in Denpasar, Bali, on a Monday.

Familiar. I’ve been here before - cafes, resorts, beaches, and weddings, right? I managed to breeze through customs despite Bali hosting G20 this week, hopped into a Grab, and made my way to Canggu (60 minutes out from the airport in a car)

I’m here to spend a week with Geoff Ang in a redux of Raw 2.0 (Geoff’s mentorship program). Been feeling mired in a creative bog when it came to portrait photography; maybe Geoff can help. Saw on Instagram that he just launched Balism Stills & Motion just over a month ago to great fanfare and excitement. I do not know what to expect. Not really.

Nervous - always known that Geoff’s a pretty well-known name and while he’s always been a mentor after I signed up to get mentored by him in Raw 2.0 sometime in 2020, this was much more than that. I was not going to have a few 2-3 hour sessions with him, but I would be spending almost every waking hour with Geoff for an entire week. Myers Briggs scored me as a 100% introvert. I’m not used to being around people for long stretches, for so long (I’m better for short social sprints).

I pull my luggage out of the car (minimal gear since Geoff has all the best toys in his studio, Balism), and send a tentative ping on Whatsapp. Geoff bounds out of a door in a comfortably seasoned tee shirt, shorts, and flip-flops and waves me over. Okay, this is promising.


In the ensuing 6 days, I’ve been challenged, pushed to new limits, and forced to confront personal challenges and insecurities as a photographer and as a person; I somehow made it through the intense week feeling like a new photographer, artist, and person. I have an unusual learning style - I don’t learn in a gradual X-Y slope; rather, I learn in a step function and so when I make a step up, it’s a jump. I feel like I’ve sprinted up a flight of steps this week.

Compelled to document this special week. Next thought to follow - I should share it in the hopes that it can help other photographers in some small way.


Day 1

It’s raining. Monsoon season in Bali. We sit at a big beautiful wood dining table with the rain pattering gently outside and we start with a conversation. Geoff quizzes me on my motivations as a portrait photographer, and where I want to go. I’m given the chance to articulate my frustrations and share a mood board of portraits from photographers I admire and hope to borrow elements from as I evolve my style. Geoff listens quietly before he lays out the plan for the week. He’s going to spend the first part of the week observing how I work and breaking me down (uh, literally) before segueing to focus on building new skills and habits. No pressure. I appreciate that he does not try to impose his sensibilities or visual style on me, but offers the means to take my own path further.

We take this to a trendy cafe near his home. I have my first meal (chicken stroganoff and strong black coffee) for this trip to Bali (Torst) while overlooking a paddy field that curves downwards and away into a gorgeous vista of clouds (I sometimes forget how beautiful an expanse of clouds can be living in Singapore). Geoff shares his journey to Bali, what he’s building and why. I remember him speaking of this move some years back, but it’s really happened. The mood is hopeful and light; but then again, we’ve not really started n earnest yet.

Back home and it’s time to plan for the week - arranging for talents to sit for their portraits and logistics. I pull out a recent set of images I shot in Studio 2020 and he pulls out his Tangent Wave 2 (for the uninitiated, this is a device that looks like a DJ console which is used to edit and grade RAW images in Capture One) and Geoff starts flexing his post-skills. I’ve seen him do this before, but this time he pushes it all the way through for several images that I recently made. A light goes off. I climb a “step”. I don’t push my edits or color-grading enough. Partly because it’s “safe”, but also because I didn’t know that it was possible to so significantly elevate an image in the directions and distances that he shared. I also tend to gravitate to a few favorite adjustments, but with the Tangent interface, it feels natural to use more of Capture One’s capabilities. Geoff demonstrates how to push one image a few different ways, and how to finish retouching and editing/grading in Photoshop. He asks why I like to edit the way I do (e.g. why I like bringing all the highlights back) and suggests that I be more thoughtful and less heavy-handed in my editing. He leaves me to continue on my own. I call it a night at 1 AM after a few more hours of re-grading and re-editing my own images. I want to internalize this so I don’t drift back to my default grading setpoint. Need to get my own Tangent Wave 2. Fall asleep anticipating the rest of the week.


Day 2

Early start - alarm goes off at 5.30 AM as it always does. I spend an hour doing more grading and edits in Capture One and Photoshop. Then it’s off to breakfast. Geoff advertises that we’re having the best scramble in Bali (Baked.). Delivers in spades. I take mine with chorizo sausage; Geoff swaps his sourdough for a croissant. Admire how different the light and everything looks in Bali (everything is Instagram-worthy). We discuss my assignment today - I am going to shoot Geoff and his small team in his studio to get warmed up and let Geoff observe me shoot.

First look at Balism. Elegant concrete grey building and dark burnished metal. Reminds me of Raw studio in Singapore and Geoff’s home. It’s spacious, sensibly designed, well-organized, and stocked with lots of equipment that any photographer would need or want. Gaped for a bit like a fish out of water at the high ceiling (you can control the height to manage the bounce) and the double cyclo. Comfortable mezzanine designated for models and talents to change and chill out in. Lounge on the top floor is photogenic in its own right with spacious glass windows and tasteful furniture. No clutter anywhere. Everything is new and shines.

First meet with Team Balism. Iqbal is an imposing but gentle and smiley gentleman whom I learn is Geoff’s partner, and a commercial photographer. Halim is a young and soft-spoken but attentive gentleman whom I learn is the studio’s photography assistant. Geoff cuts me loose to shoot. I opt for a simple portrait against a white background that would look good both in color and black and white. I direct my team and we start shooting. I love the tether cart and the immense utility it brings. I shoot and grade as I go. I notice Geoff making mental notes and I sweat a little.

I shoot for 30 minutes before Geoff calls for a break and pulls me to a corner to debrief. He’s never been one to mince his words, so I get a complete download of his observations on where I can improve. It’s so direct and honest that it’s hard to hear. But everything is constructive. Geoff frames each of his points not as an insurmountable weakness but as an opportunity to improve. I frantically scribble into my red notebook. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. But this is good. Keep going. Get the images I want - wrap the mini-shoot.

Presenting Team Balism - from left to right, Iqbal, Geoff and Halim.

Lunch break. Burgers. I barely taste it. My mind’s on the shoot and the feedback. We head back in and break out RGB tube lights and Aputure lights. We pull out diffusers, reflectors, scrims and C-stands. At some point, the boom comes into play. It’s just lots of fun now. We experiment with shutter-drag, continuous Aputure lights, and RGB tube lights. I have an SD card full of images and a mind brimming with new ideas. I’m excited to apply my newfound editing approach to Raw files, but that will have to wait.

Geoff has a guest photographer coming in to give a talk. We pack up the space and I help set up the space. The crowd trickles in. Many are photogenic young people clutching professional cameras and sport little totems from Bali - cloth bracelets and comfortable worn clothing. Vitaly (@dzziuu) is a fresh-faced young photographer in a chic sweater with an excellent grasp of color and grading. Geoff and Vitaly kick off the sharing perched on comfortable director chairs. Vitaly picks up the camera mid-way for a demonstration where he shoots a model that he’s brought along. The audience gets onto its feet and starts walking around as he shoots and Geoff assists in the demo. Talk ends and Geoff takes a moment to get to meet all the participants. I speak with several photographers and spend a few moments chatting with Iqbal and Halim. Back home for more editing until I fall asleep. Late.

Vitaly (@dzziuu) is guest speaker for the evening; he shows us images and videos from his portfolio and tells us his journey in halting and accented English. He’s never spoken before but the audience respond to his infectious enthusiasm and passion.


Day 3

I said I wanted to people-watch today. We go to trendy Crate in Canggu for breakfast after a quick spin and tour around Canggu. Traipsed the well-known shortcut that is a steep dip down a hill followed by a climb. Whiz by tantalizingly photogenic cafes. Geoff points a few well-known ones out and I make mental bookmarks for when I have time to explore. Many parts of Bali are gentrified and kind of feels like a massive Tiong Bahru. Crate is packed with good-looking tourists. I wait for a table and contemplate that putting a tissue packet to chope here would be laughed at. We share a table with a young shirtless man who is bleeding out (okay, I exaggerate). He was in a motorcycle accident 15 minutes ago and is now casually having his breakfast. He observes my photography talk with Geoff with intense interest. I notice that the tables are hollow and anyone can chuck anything in there. I see IDs, love notes, cash, and polaroids. The meal is slow but is really large when it arrives. Tasty and good value. We have to scarf it down today because we have shoots coming up.

Today we are working on using strobes outdoors - I’ve struggled to blend strobes with ambient light in a natural way. The model is Che - someone I’ve met before on a previous trip. She has been baked to a rich tone of brown and hazelnut from surfing almost daily for 11 years. We keep it simple. One light on an umbrella and we head into the greenery near the studio and find a photogenic abandoned hut. I take a few snaps and go “yuck”. Geoff thinks some of the shots are good - keep going. Realized that I’ve perhaps not really stretched the limits of my post-processing enough to know what is good enough and what needs to be refined. Intensely curious how they will turn out after grading and editing. I shoot and chat with Che right up till it starts to rain and we run back to the studio. I say goodbye to Che - it’s so good to see her again. Drizzling. We may have to cancel the planned beach shoot.

Beach shoot next. Yulia is a retoucher and sometimes-model from Russia. I ask if I may examine her face before the shoot and she cheerfully says yes. She has startlingly pale and clear blue eyes. Feel a bit poleaxed gazing into them. We head to the beach - my first beach shoot (Singapore beaches are not as exciting to shoot, perhaps). Halim and Glenn tagged along to assist (bless them both). This beach is known for its black sand and textured stone cliffs. The rainy season makes it damp but also challenging because there’s more trash washed up on the beach. Set up one light and I’m off. Twist in a 70-200mm zoom lens. Always been a prime lens purist but will try zoom out after so many years (Geoff scoffs at my prime lens snobbery). Silver-lining to the dreary weather is that it’s easier to use flash with the soft evening light. That said, light is falling fast. Have to work faster.

Yulia is not a full-time model, but she knows her angles and she works with me to create an amazing set of opening images. Geoff helps make small adjustments and calls out advice. Appreciate that he gives me space to shoot. We make our way down the coast and I notice a small alcove which gives me a tasty idea. I switch to natural light for a moment. He then asks the team to get the RGB tubes and exhorts me not to be afraid of bold colors, and promises to demonstrate how embracing this can be amazing. Intrigued. We shoot till the light fails and we duck into the alcove I saw for a final set of amazing shots. Sandy, salty, wet but happy. Lots of potential in this set. We walk back to the car in the dark. Yulia, Geoff, and I have a good conversation on the ride back to the studio.

Image of Yulia on the beach straight of camera without retouching.


Day 4

Woke up looking this way. Would like to think that I’ve exceeded Geoff’s expectations for what I am capable of cramming in the last few days. Mia the over-friendly and mischievous/crafty dog harasses me as she always does when I wake up. Mia can chase my laster pointer endlessly. Much amused.

2 shoots in Balism studio today. Geoff and I opt to skip breakfast and head in to set up. Mici arrives. I found her on IG in my earlier search for potential models/subjects. Mici rocks up in boots and a fitting grey tank top and denim shorts and a genuine smile and a warm hug. I like her instantly. Her rusty-pink hair offsets her rich, dark coffee-toned tan skin, and she has tasteful tattoos scattered around her person. They all look significant. She is a gamer chick who creates content on Twitch and also writes on her Patreon account (devastatingly raw stuff - she sent me a few pieces).

“Where do you want to go today?” Geoff asks. I decide that I want to try a lighting setup Vitaly used in his demo two nights before. I’m trying to apply all of Geoff’s feedback from before. Be more mindful and deliberate. Take my time. Frame more carefully. Iterate and build. I shoot few images (far fewer than I usually do), but they always build on one another technically. I’ve always been heavy-handed with my shooting because I am laser-focused on capturing elusive emotion and personality that can be there in one frame, gone the next. In my pursuit of this, I often let everything else fall away (e.g. details like distracting creases on my subject’s clothes, stray strands of hair, etc.). I now realize being more mindful can elevate a portrait to new levels. Mici alternates between gazing intensely into the camera and flouncing around on light feet. The pictures are gorgeous, but can’t be distracted by that. Need to focus on learning rather than creating portfolio images. We take a short coffee break in between (Mici, like me, is also powered by coffee). Iqbal is fascinated with her vocabulary and asks what “slayyyyyyy!” means; Mici obliges with a tutorial. I manage to experiment with two other lighting setups before we run out of time and the next talent arrives. I say goodbye to Mici and thank her.

Yelena is next. She’s from Kazakhstan and is tall, svelte, cerebral, and elegant. She’s brought her favorite things to wear (I always ask my subjects to bring something they are comfortable in and is authentically them, but when it comes to models they can say that for almost anything they put on). Yelena has a gentle energy about her. Obviously an experienced and talented model. She’s also brought her chess set - she is a ranked chess player (she plays almost daily). She’s excited as I am about having a portrait that expresses something personal about her. I select a new style from my mood board and fall into a comfortable cadence with Halim to get it set up. Geoff lets me do my thing as I direct the setup and start to shoot. This is the first shoot he completely steps away to give me my space but walks on set 2-3 times when I wanted to get advice. I fall into a comfortable shooting rhythm while staying mindful of new habits to keep.

It’s a wrap. Yelena bugs out. Halim and I jump in for a few shots of each other before we tear the setup down and put everything away. Halim slips into the denim jacket that has become synonymous with me for his portrait. Graded his portrait a bit cooler while I pushed mine to green for taste. Feeling a lot more confident and creative in the studio now. My strength has always been natural light and I’ve been getting better in the studio, but I now feel equipped to grow in both disciplines. Geoff checks in on how I’m feeling - I report that I’m having so much fun. He smiles and walks off.

Sushi dinner at TYGR Sushi with Geoff and his beautiful family.


Day 5

No shoots today. Banana bread at breakfast blows my mind. It comes with a dollop of some insane butter that complements the taste of the bread. It’s gone in 3 bites. Later, back home, Geoff plugs in his Tangent Wave 2 and we get to post/editing. I realized that I can change more than one thing at a time, unlike working with a mouse. I start having favorite combinations to move in tandem. Spend some time culling and selecting images. We go through that. Select a few choice images and we start editing them together. We go through my website. He is ruthless in culling images that he thinks don’t make the cut. I wince as he deletes portraits and work that I like. Geoff concedes that I can put it back if I revisit and re-grade and re-edit the image. We also spent time talking about the business of photography.

Mutual deliberation on what to have for lunch. Geoff snaps his fingers and orders satay. Best. Satay. Ever. I eat every last stick and morsel and make loud appreciative noises. Send a picture of lunch to Mom who gets immediate FOMO. I take some time out for a bit of rest. For dinner, we decide on Korean food - a hole-in-the-wall diner with a cheerful neon light lighting the place up. Geoff and I speak of things beyond photography in earnest for the first time since I’ve arrived over hot soup, japchae, and a kimchi pancake. It’s unusual to see the human side of Geoff. He’s always so controlled and confident in his element. I express my appreciation for his generosity in the way that he teaches and shares so openly. I sense that the tone of the trip changed here as we sip our drinks in companionable silence. We finish our soju and call it a night.


Day 6

Last day, last shoot. We go to a different satay place before the shoot. It’s an unassuming warung. A different style of satay, but again devastatingly tasty. One comes with a jelly-like sauce that tastes amazing. The other is bathed in a puddle of appetizing chilli. Bowl of clear pork soup. White rice drizzled with kecap manis. The soup surprises me with how delicious it is. I finish that first (and later finish the rest of Geoff’s). I’m not even bashful or paiseh when I raid his bowl.

Different approach today. Geoff is going to show me how he shoots so that I can observe. We’re stretching what we can do with just one light. I step back and observe. Geoff is decisive and clear in instructing Halim to set up exactly what he wants. Nindya arrives in a leather jacket and boots. Geoff greets her softly and starts to brief her. Not everything is new to me - I remember snippets from the earlier Raw 2.0 and some of his workshops. That said, actually watching Geoff work helped me appreciate so many dimensions of how portrait photographers can build mutual trust with the subject and unlock their fullest potential. I note how even the small things he does helps establish his own credibility and what’s expected of Nindya. I see her responding not just to his calming demeanor, but also to his authority. I observe her excitement as he shows edits to her and invites her to create more great images with him. Geoff uses all kinds of everyday things as light modifiers, even a few strips of tape and yet everything looks great.

I’m not certain how he was as a younger man, but I find myself thinking that Geoff is a complete photographer - a consummate creator/artist, statesman, and businessperson.

Katya, Geoff’s kind and lovely wife, then comes to the studio after we put everything away. She is a breathwork instructor and she was really kind in offering to lead a few of us in a breathwork exercise. Excited. I do yoga and meditate, but I have not tried breathing work. Interesting experience; breathing mindfully is hard. Experienced new emotions and physical sensations. Surfaced from the experienced feeling calm. We sip hot tea from disposable cups and share our experiences. Each of us ends the practice by saying a word out loud. “Centered” comes to mind, but I go with “hopeful”. My mind has been running non-stop at a frenetic pace all week; finally, a chance to completely defragment my mind and slow it down.

Adjourned for dinner with the Balism team at a local Indonesian place Geoff and I found on an earlier night. Everyone’s famished after the breathwork. We eat with gusto, sip beer, and share stories. I know everyone here now. I feel real affection for these people. A band starts to play Indonesian romance ballads but switches to English songs to our delight after a while. By this point, we’re slightly tipsy and probably louder than we should be, but everything’s great.

I bid Iqbal, his wife Bonita, and Halim goodbye and assured them that I would be back soon. I give Halim a pat on his shoulder and encourage him to work hard and start his career as a photographer. He smiles and gives me a quiet nod. Iqbal looms over me and smiles his smile.

Final chat with Geoff back home.

We recap the entire program and his key takeaways for me to work on. There is a finality to this that I don’t like. I am going to miss this. But there is also hope, vibrance, and brightness. For the first time in my life, I feel like I have everything I need to grow in any direction I want. I know that some of the insights I’ve found here on this trip extend beyond photography. I thank him sincerely. While Geoff has been a mentor to me for some time now, I tell him that this is the first time I feel like he is a friend. Photography can sometimes be a lonely endeavor and as Geoff says, some behaviors come with the territory. It is wonderful to have someone I can speak with openly about photography. I insist that he call on me if I can ever be helpful to him in any way. We end the night on a quiet and thoughtful note. I sit alone around his family’s home and take it all in.

I head out the next morning. I say a heartfelt goodbye to Katya and embrace both of them. Geoff smiles at me as I look back one more time. I know he dislikes anyone taking photos of him without his permission (I understand that). I pause in that moment to content myself by taking a mental picture before I jump into my Grab. His eyes are crinkled in a way that I have learned in my study of human faces as a complete and uncomplicated joy for having shared this experience together.

I joked with Geoff that first day in Torst (the cafe) that this was my version of “Eat, Pray, Love”, referencing that famous book and movie. It seems that I got exactly a photographer’s edition of this - “Eat, Pray, Shoot”.

I’m looking forward to applying all my newfound skills in creating and delivering even more refined and awesome portraits for my clients and in my personal work.

I’m also putting time aside to slowly work through grading and retouching/editing my treasure trove of images from Bali - I’ll be posting them in the coming days/weeks. I hope you enjoyed reading this and the images to come!


A candid moment with Geoff in Balism.

Caveat: While this is not a sponsored post, it is by no means unbiased. I wrote it to remember my experience here with Geoff, and hope that this post helps him, his tribe/family, and Balism; if nothing else, to increase awareness of this special thing happening here in Bali. If you’re ever in Bali, I do encourage you to check Balism out and say hello to Geoff and maybe attend one of his workshops / events.

And maybe if you’re thinking of experiencing something similar, have a chat with Geoff.

Another note: this week represented an investment for me. I think we can all appreciate that our personal time is finite, limited, and valuable. I invested not just my time, but in fees to rent and use the studio and equipment (appreciative of Geoff who extended a special rate to me), models, and a token to Geoff for his time. I recall thinking that the token sum that I shared with Geoff in the first iteration was too little given the amount of time and care he invested in guiding me (I benchmarked this with my hourly rates as a photographer and it was obvious that I was so lucky to have his time). I value education, and I value educators like Geoff. I also do feel that my investment has helped me appreciate my insights more, and motivates me to make full use of the experience.

Aristia -- "Ephemerality of a fleeting blossom, elegance of an unfurling new leaf..."

Aristia (or Ari @aristophylla) is simultaneously a student, plant stylist, collector, and environmental advocate. She strongly believes in the power of plants to transform lives. As a Life Sciences undergrad, she hopes to bring inclusive, sustainable, and nature-centric solutions to people, and use greenery as a platform to connect and heal. She cares for her plants, dog, and pet praying mantises at home in her garden and is assisted by her Mom.


Why do you love collecting and caring for plants?

I think plant keeping is really the perfect hobby because of all the freedom associated with it. It's liberating in its universality because you don't need to be inherently talented or artistic or smart to enjoy gardening, so anyone and everyone can get into it regardless of skill level and age. At the same time, there's an abundance of freedom in choice – if you want to explore the artistic aspect, or the scientific aspect, or a blend of the two, there's always an avenue to do it. And there are so many different genera and families to go into, so there's no lack of diversity apparent in the hobby. I think these two qualities of universality and diversity really make plant care very very enjoyable for not just me but everyone else in the community.

On a more personal level, plant care helps keep me grounded and mindful of myself and my surroundings. I often get so busy I lose track of the time but seeing my plants grow gives me a better, more tangible sense of the days passing, and also reminds me to take a step back to enjoy the little things in life instead of just mindlessly moving from one project to the next. Keeping plants also teaches you a whole bunch of life lessons, like learning to let go, to be patient, to share, about consistency and about love. It really makes you wiser leh!

As for the plant collecting aspect, I really enjoy the process of curation. My garden is my gallery, and a good variety of different plants allows you to appreciate both the differences and the similarities between individuals. I also really love learning about and studying different plants, and I enjoy the challenge and process of figuring out a plant's needs and where it'll do best in my house. I try to select a wide range of plants so I can get the full experience from every end of the spectrum.

How did you get your start?

How I started always makes me laugh. I think most people begin by buying a handful of greens for their house but for me it started when I watched Jenna Marbles' Youtube video tour of her plants, where she showed her Begonia maculata. I saw it and I was like “hmmm maybe I should try one…”, so I found some Begonias on Carousell and bought then. They, of course, promptly died within no time because who gets a Begonia as a starter plant, right? I actually also named them all after my friends, and that spurred me on to try to figure out how to actually care for plants because I didn't want plants named after my friends to die... and thus began my plant journey proper. This was mid-2019, I think. I remember it was months before my A-Levels. I would have my daily 'indulgence' of watering my plants in the morning before going to study for the rest of the day. Fun times.

How many plants do you have? What type of plants do you focus on?

Wow, I don't know. 400-500 I'm guessing.

Earlier this year I focused on Platycerium (Staghorn Ferns) and Orchids, and I'm currently getting into Nepenthes (Pitcher Plants), Homalomena and Gesneriads. I like having a good variety. I think now I hop around more than specialize, but my definite top favourites are staghorn ferns and orchids.

As I’m mostly away from home for uni, my mom has since stepped up to fill in the role of primary caretaker of my garden (no mean feat considering the intense daily demands!) and is the quiet but crucial force behind our green sanctuary.

Ari pictured with her Platycerium Wandae, and her mother holding an Anthurium Moonenii.

What is your "process" in your plant journey?

I think I went from curiosity to aesthetic appreciation, and then a want to acquire a scientific understanding of how plants work and eventually to the larger topic of conservation and coexistence with nature. Of course, it isn't a strictly linear flow – sometimes I would bounce between these stages and learn more about different aspects of plant keeping. For instance, I used to be a very "function over aesthetics person" last year. I only ever bought plants, never pots, because at the time I felt like studying and observing plants should be the only thing a 'serious collector' prioritises. But after joining my current job I learned more about plant styling and interior design, which gave me lots of insight on how beauty can be used to entice more people to care about the natural world, as well as a source of everyday joy and pleasure.

I'd like to think this flow from physical appreciation to greater understanding and then speaking up for the injustices against the environment is a progression that can be achieved for most people, not just me. We all start off wanting plants because they're pretty and beautiful and they make our space look nice, then maybe the ephemerality of a fleeting blossom piques your interest, or the elegance of an unfurling new leaf catches your eye, and you want to know more, you want to know why. So science and questions of "how" and "why" fill your Google search, and you realize, "damn, there's so much to know and learn." It's a constant process of learning and unlearning. There's really so much about plants to find out, and so much that has not even been discovered. I love that. I really love learning about them.

I also definitely grew a lot during these 2+ years in the hobby as a person! I started out as an excited, starry-eyed teenager who really didn't know anything about the world or about plants. I got into some ups and downs along the way but I think the young lady who came out of it is a lot stronger and wiser than she ever could have been if she didn't experience some of those difficulties.

Why did you pick this plant to be featured with you in your portrait? Is there a story behind it?

My Thaumatophyllum 'African Fantasy' is easily one of my favorite plants in my collection. I got it when it was small and barely a quarter of the current size. I'm quite proud of how big it's grown in the past year. Whenever I feel dejected about plant deaths, this guy continued existence really consoles me.

The Platycerium Wandae (Queen Staghorn Fern) is a cute little one sold to me by a good friend who, I think, has one of the best plant collections and gardens in the whole of Singapore.

The Anthurium Moonenii was also a birthday gift from another friend in the plant community – he propagated it from his own mother plant. It's one thing to get a beautiful wishlist plant, but another when it's passed to you from friends who went like "hey I know you like these, would you want one?". It really allows you to stop and remember that in this community it's not just all about plants and gardening, but also about the people and the heart behind the greenery. I think we always tend to forget that there is someone behind the plants we see on Instagram, someone who waters and cares for and loves these plants.

Describe the most significant challenges in your plant journey?

I think because I'm so passionate about plants, along the way I kind of made it an integral and large part of my core personality. So there was a time when I got turned down repeatedly by various dream academic and career opportunities in the field of plant studies. This made such a really huge impact on my life because it demoralized me. I realized eventually that too much of my life was revolving around plants – my career now and in the future, my studies, my hobby, my close friends, etc. – and I needed to rediscover who I was beyond Instagram, beyond the garden. So I took a step back from Instagram for almost a good 6 months to really search for who I was and regain a sense of self outside of the 'public eye'.

And I think I've found it.

Photographer: DGT Portraits
Producer: Quinn Lum
Space: Studio 2020

Fiona & Darrick -- "Atlasgreenie"

After meeting Jonno, I continue an exploration of people like me who have a deep passion for collecting and caring for plants. While I have only been at it for just a year (when I finally had enough space to pick this up again), this is actually not new for me. I had a green thumb as a young boy. I remember watching Mister Miyagi from Karate Kid explain the patient and slow beauty of bonsai to Daniel-san as a young boy and started collecting and caring for plants. It turns out that I had green fingers. I was curious, creative, systematic, and obsessive and I started growing anything from curious weeds to affordable bonsai (to a very young boy). I did not know this at the time, but this passion stems from a nurturing quality within me. As I started my career, I found that I had a gift for mentorship, for teaching, and for helping people grow. I find that I get the most joy from acquiring small or beat-up plants and patiently enabling them to grow, rather than acquiring expensive picture-perfect specimens. I’m curious why other people enjoy this activity (people who have gone much deeper down this rabbit hole than I have) and set out to meet a few of them. Many thanks to Quinn Lum who helped me produce this series.


Darrick Chan and Fiona are the pair behind Atlasgreenie (Instagram and Carousell), whom I only just now realized was also featured by another photographer Jayden (video post on their greenhouse here). After buying a few plants from Fiona on Carousell, I finally got to meet her when she delivered a Philodendron Patriciae that I purchased from her. I ended up talking with her for nearly an hour, and after 30 minutes of curiously observing me, her 2 lovebirds finally screeched to be let out and wanted to socialize a little with me. I thought — I had to collect a shot of them for this series. :)

Why do you love collecting and caring for plants?

Plants have a deep personal meaning for the two of us because it has helped tide us through difficult periods in our lives. It is through this journey, that we realized there's always something rewarding in the simple act of just being around and caring for plants — in a special way that boosts our spirits. We started Atlasgreenie to continue this journey and to also bring out the best in people through nature by helping them connect with nature while improving their personal well-being at the same time.

When and how did get started?

Both of us started out as people who were simply buying plants for home decoration. Our passion and love for plants grew as we accumulated more of these green babies. Fiona has been a plant enthusiast since her childhood days. I (Darrick) was one of Fiona's first customers. As a young plant parent, taking care of these little green babies was not always easy for me. Whenever I needed help, Fiona was there to share tips and suggestions from her experience nurturing these sometimes-demanding plants. Inspired by Fiona's passion for plants and her generosity in sharing her deep knowledge, I joined Fiona in founding AtlasGreenie.

How many plants do you have? What type of plants do you focus on?

We now have more than 500 unique species of plants collected from all over the world, painstakingly collected and nurtured over years. Some are even unidentified in the plant taxonomy. We focus on aroids, mainly Monstera, Philodendrons, and Anthuriums.

What is your "process" in your plant journey?

Step 1: Nurture with lots of love - After our green babies are sourced, we shower them with love, nutrients, and music (because it helps). They are given the best conditions to acclimatize in our very own greenhouse

Step 2: Propagate with more love - We have accumulated an eclectic collection of high-quality mother plants with great genes which give rise to healthy green babies for propagation. We then nurture these babies in the best environment that will allow them to thrive with happiness

Step 3: Deliver with heart - When we do sell our plants, we make sure that they are delivered in great condition. It would be awful to nurture these plants for many months and sometimes years, only to have them damaged in transit. We pack it carefully and make sure that they’re moved carefully to their new home.

Why did you pick this plant to be featured with you in your portrait? Is there a story behind it?

Fiona and her birds are Anthurium lovers. Darrick on the other hand is a monstera lover. Both the Anthurium Red Crystallinum and the Monstera Burle Marx Flame belong to our series of resurrected plants. When they were originally sourced, these were immature baby plants that suffered severe root rot when they were delivered to our greenhouse. They had both lost their beautiful foliage, and we only had sad stumps to work with. We painstakingly showered them with lots of love, patience (and music). Like a phoenix, they were finally resurrected and have been growing happily ever since.

Mami Ishibashi makes a cameo visit to the studio because she wanted to meet and play with Chirpy and Kiki, Fiona’s lovebirds.

Photographer: DGT Portraits
Producer: Quinn Lum
Space: Studio 2020

Making a Photograph, Not Taking One

While I was in Oregon attending photography classes at Kando, one of the instructors said something that stuck with me. He said, as photographers, we don’t take photos. We make photos. That kind of stuck with me. Photographers take deliberate actions to create a great photo. That might mean investing in gear, learning how to control and use light, interacting with people, or knowing where to be at the right place and at the right time. It involves some effort, some thinking, and I hope, some joy.

For example, I might look at the lunch I just ordered and thought, that actually looks great. I take out my phone and snap a photo. That seems more like “taking a photo” than making one. But if I started to arrange it differently, and started deliberating angles, lights, background, composition and such, we’re now moving into the realm of “making a photo”. I don’t think one needs to be a professional to make a photo, just a keen desire to creating a great image.

And what of a portrait?

Taking portraits presents an intriguing challenge to making a portrait. This is because a critical element in the foreground is a complex human being. If I picked a subject to sit for his or her portrait at random and asked two photographers to take a portrait, I’m quite sure that the two versions could not be more different than say, if I asked the same photographers to shoot interior design or a still object.

The topic of “making a portrait” continues to intrigue me every day. It’s a path, a bridge to knowing new and interesting people. And an invitation to interpret their personality into a series of images that speak something of them. In a way, a photographer would find it hard to make a portrait without enlisting the consent, if not the cooperation (and enthusiasm) of his subject. It’s a collaboration of sorts, jointly putting something in to create that finished product (for example, this portrait of Enrique who is a DJ who’s dropping a new awesome sounding EDM album soon would not be the same without him bringing his enthusiasm to the shoot. I spent some time getting to know him over coffee before I pulled out my camera and i that time I realize now that I was thinking of a great many things of how I wanted to make Enrique’s portrait before I even took out my camera.

Enrique Dubois Nooma

And so, I shall continue to improve my ability to make portraits in small steps. I hope you think of the idea of making a photo the next time you are so stirred to create an image.

My Favorite Shots from Joker (2019)

Joker floored me. It was a refreshing departure from the forgettable superhero movies that are so trendy (the other angle being the comedic relief from Guardians of the Galaxy and Deadpool). That aside for a moment, it was also a masterpiece from a photography point of view. Not gon’ lie — I was surprised that the director and DOP are the same team who made Hangover. I sat in the dark theatre and admired each shot in its gritty and well-thought out glory. I wanted to break down my favourite shots from the movie, this portrait of the Joker.

Framing this favourite shot from the movie

This is probably my favourite shot from the movie (I later watched an interview with Todd Philips, the director of Joker, and he also said this was his favourite shot of the movie). Arthur Fleck gets his sign snatched and after chasing the kids who stole the sign, he gets ambushed and beaten up in an alley. The shot focuses on Arthur lying and gasping in pain and to catch his breath as the kids run off, and slowly pans out to reveal the debris of the sign. He tries to reach for the sign, as if to fix it, before he gives up in the futility of the gesture. Arthur then offhandedly presses the flower on his jacket to squirt water, in a sad display of how he can find humour in the whole episode. The shot is just so beautifully framed in his symmetry and play with depth of field (shallow focus on the floor in the foreground and the alley in the background). The garbage and debris strewn around him seem accidental, but somehow conveys a deliberateness that makes the entire shot seem balanced. I don’t think I or anyone could have framed this one shot any better.

Joker (2019) beaten up and lying in an alley

Incredible Catchlights

Catchlights are that glint you find in the eyes of a subject. They suggest intelligence and personality, and in the case of the Joker, menace and the potential of violence. In an opening scenes start with Arthur talking to his counsellor and looking down as he takes deep drags from his cigarette. Then he suddenly looks up and you catch that gleam in his eye. That left me breathless. Japanese anime artists know how to use this. Some anime characters take on light, affable personalities but when pushed to their limits, can suddenly shift to their alter ego aspects. They suddenly look up and you see a steely, red-blue glint at the top of their eyes that makes anyone give pause. As a photographer, I want to continue to learn how to engineer the right catchlights to accentuate my subject’s personality in a portrait.

Joaquin Phoenix Close Up

Portrait of the Joker — A study in pensiveness

In this portrait you see Arthur Fleck 2.0 in his Joker-esque suit and signature green hair and painted face. He sits in a powder room as he waits to go on stage to reap his vengeance. The calm before the storm. He sits with his back against the glaring lights, legs crossed, as he dangles a cigarette in his hand and stares off into nothing. The first thing that comes to mind is utter confidence and the relaxed strength of his composure. He knows what he is to do next (or not) but he gives off none of the jittery nervousness and uncertainty that was there before his transformation. Simply put, this is one of the first times he’s truly himself. I love this photo so much because it resembles something out of a fashion magazine, except this isn’t an actor in his dressing room. We’ve broken down the 3rd wall and moved into his space, and we are now observing The Joker himself. It is chilling and sent chills down my spine.

Portrait of the Joker in a powder room

Dancing as if no one were looking

After Arthur / Joker / Joaquin kills the 3 bankers on the train, he flees the scene in a panic until he locks himself in alone a public bathroom. I expected a scene of conflict and remorse, but instead, he begins this sequence of dance. It is as if he lets the energy flow through himself, and he revels in this actions. Not in a way that he is exhilarated about his murders, but rather a quiet, self-reflective catharsis. He sways and postures as if the camera and audience were not there. What might seem silly now becomes poetic, and theatrical. He looks a frightful mess but he projects the aura and confidence of a thespian on stage. In this one screenshot above, we see a stolen moment here. I like how his right hand is moving into the foreground while his equally eloquent left wanders to complete his ballad, his glance downwards filled with pain.

Joker dancing in men's bathroom

I like the idea of shooting actors because I think it takes some darkness and complexity to do the job, to absorb a personality, to understand it and make it your own. Joaquin Phoenix is brilliant. If you watch him in Gladiator, Her and now Joker, you get a sense of who the man is behind the portrait. I don’t know Joaquin, or am even a fanboy who delves deeply into his personal history. But just from his portraits and his movies, I get the sense that he’s an incredibly sensitive soul. A complicated man, full of vulnerability and doubts but capable of strong bright feelings and love. I think that, on some level, I can identify with him.

Hello World

I once tried to teach myself to code an iPhone app. The first thing they teach you was to type in code that would display “HELLO WORLD” and I did just that. When "HELLO WORLD” showed up on my screen through the GUI, I thought I was on my way to designing my own app; my own way of communicating with the world at large (yes, I just watched “Coding” on Netflix and Vox’s series “Explained”).After my small victory dance, I felt completely lost from there on. I suppose my gift doesn’t lie there, despite being a mean Excel technician.

That said, put a camera in my hands and I am a different person. More confident, more sociable, more… me. Myers Briggs lists me as a 100% introvert, but with my camera I find a means to connect with people 1:1 or in small groups.

Every new photographer experiments and shoots all the genres — landscapes, still life, fashion, street and portraits. Eventually, most photographers find their leanings and their reasons for liking a specific type of photography and start to delve deeper into their chosen area. I found an immediate connection with portraits. This is one of the big reasons I started focusing on portraits as a teenager when I chronicled my classmates and our adventures with my cheap 35mm film camera, and later when I traded up to professional cameras — the opportunity to connect with and know new and interesting people.

A large part of my method is conversation. I channel my natural intellectual curiosity to find out more about my subjects and what they care about, what drives them, what they detest. I truly believe that there is something to be learned from everyone, although it is often not what you expect to learn.

I take portraits of people everywhere I go. I met and took portraits for an elderly and distinguished Englishman living in New York City 2 years ago when I visited my sister and her family in Brooklyn. He wears 3-piece suits and a monocle and his job is to patrol Central Park… on a horse. We talked Monty Python and life in the city. On the same trip I met and shot a Ukrainian expat who took me to eat authentic Russian cuisine in the city in an underground restaurant with her friend. In Poland, I traipsed the city and got a walking tour from a stunningly photogenic yoga instructor.

In that way I suppose portraiture is my “HELLO WORLD”. One portrait and and connection at a time. I have no intention of stopping.

Circa 2010, New York City with my LOMO LCA

Circa 2010, New York City with my LOMO LCA